I have been told that it would be a whirlwind having a toddler and a newborn, and that my feet wouldn’t touch the ground, and for once ‘they’ weren’t wrong
This mum of two life is a roller-coaster. This has been my first few days flying solo and I can categorically tell you that the highs are high and lows are quite low.
I know i’m not going to remember these days. These weeks. They are going to blur into away in a haze of breast milk and toddler snacks.
I’m determined to document these days, however mundane so I can capture the magic in between the piles of washing and over soaked breast pads.
My insta mum family that have walked in my shoes before keep telling me that the toddler and newborn phase will fly by, and a small part of me is wondering if I just close my eyes tight and hold on will I get through it quicker. But then there is the polar opposite feeling where I don’t want to miss a thing, not a moment, not a second.
A toddler and a newborn
I knew it would be a juggle, and I knew it would be hard and relentless. But what I hadn’t expected is for it to be such a roller-coaster, so up and down, and in such a short space of time.
One minute I’m feeding Marlow, nailing toddler life, while he mansplains some toy truck to me, and kisses his baby brother on the head, my new born Marlow burps quietly and falls asleep on my chest, Otis my eldest snuggling into my side and looking like an angel.
Fast forward 10 mins and Marlow is screaming with trapped wind on my chest, Otis has decided that his form of entertainment is to remove every toy and book from his cupboard and launch it across the room. Me and the newborn dodge the oncoming missiles, while trying to remain cool and calm, as to not upset the toddler (or newborn) anymore.
This is just a snapshot of half an hour of my day.
Keeping the memories
I hope me keeping this blog will not only preserve my memories but also be a support to other mummas out their who are going through the same thing.
It seems to me that this is going to be our daily life, a crazy roller-coaster of a day. Where we do almost nothing but feel like we have done everything
These are days filled with nappies and crisps. Avocado and chocolate fuelled toddlers, tea and biscuits fuelled mums. And newborns covered in baby sick and the toddlers avocado.
I will miss this
Having a toddler and a newborn is going to speed up my life, even though the days will feel longer – I am going to miss them, even though at times the juggle makes my eyes wince, my eyes roll, my eyes fill with tears.
But we did it, we baked some cakes, we watch some (a lot) of TV, we kicked a ball, we had baby cuddles, toddler snuggles, we had tantrums, and naughty steps. We had kisses and brotherly love, I put washing in the washing machine, I made dinner, I made sure I drank lots of water, and ate left over pasta for lunch. I dumped the toddler on his dad for bath time and I retreated to the sofa to quickly write this blog before my cuddly newborn wakes up for his evening cuddles.
I made it through this normal day, unscathed, happy, sad, exhausted and exhilarated.
One day down, many more to go.
But probably not enough.